How Deep is your love - (2)

Then he said to me, “hiding a past hurt does not make it disappear, it simply makes the hurt run deeper”. So I prayed for God to heal this hurt that later translated into hatred. I thank God for His revelation and healing. Does that mean that I am now willing to accept homosexuality and homosexuals as being normal? No. It simply means that I would stop wasting my energy on hating that which I cannot create, but rather would see them with the lens through which God sees them. I hate the sin but not the sinner. The new found freedom that I now have allows me to say a word of prayers when I run into these special children of God. I don’t understand them and their ways but I pray that God who searches the heart would grant them a life transforming encounter with Him. I also pray that His love grow more in my heart because without His love, my attempt at having compassion for others is doomed. As the bible say, “Above all things have fervent love for one another, for love will cover a multitude of sins.

I wasn’t sure of how this whole love of God for gays would pan out, so I decided to try it out. So I went to have a hair cut at my barber’s, knowing well that there was a gay guy working there. He was one of those twisted guys who believe God intended to make them female. So he dresses, acts and talks like a woman. My barber told me of an incident when they had a misunderstanding and he shouted at him, threatening to beat him up. Then to my barber’s surprise, one of his customers; an elderly gentle man was really angry with him. He said and I quote, “that is no way to handle a conflict with a lady”. Nothing he said could change the elderly man’s opinions that this was actually a man and not a woman. Yes, the gay guy is that twisted.

On getting to the salon, he was having his hair made, just like the other women in the salon. For the first time I looked at him and made a comment about being surprised at the extent to which this guy would go to prove that he is a “diva”. I felt so much compassion for him; pity at his confusion and ignorance. I realized the initial hatred I had was no longer there, all I had was a genuine wish that God could do something to bring this young man out of the conundrum of confusion and fictitious existence. Unfortunately there is very little that I can do apart from wishing him God’s divine intervention. I felt good inside of me and I know that this feeling had to do with the fact that the negative power of resentment no longer has a place in me.

It is one thing for us to desire something holy and righteous even to the extent that we behave as Christ did with the money changers in the church in the bible. But we cannot allow the devil to also sow his tars in our wheat of righteous longing by trying to remove specks from people’s eyes while ignoring the logs in ours. Well let God be God and man be man, full of weaknesses and short comings.

Together, we can achieve more. Cheers